‘Why does it feel worse again?’. This is something people often say as they continue their deepening into awakening and enlightenment. Here I share what I think is going on with it. Does it resonate for you? — When we first wake up out of the illusion of being a separate person, and into the recognition of our essential nature of awareness, there can be a period (to differing degrees) of ease and flow and lightness.

Back in 2018, I had a profound awakening experience, my mind went quiet and I thought that was it. I thought I was done – fully awakened. Here’s what I’ve learnt since. — I wrote about my big awakening in this post here. It was a beautiful, joy-filled experience thanks to a Jenga-style collapse of a whole load of thought, and it was followed by an amazing few months of a quiet mind. It was so easy and effortless in that state!

Here’s a short video to share the key difference that I see is at the heart The Three Principles vs nonduality. What’s your perspective? — Having not engaged deeply with the Three Principles since 2019, this year’s conference was a great opportunity to hear people speak about them fresh, and to see what felt aligned with and what differed from my last few years in a nondual exploration. This video shares the one key difference…

I’ve had conversations with a few people recently where they’ve heard spiritual guides and teachers espousing the beauty of oneness experiences, and now they’re struggling with — ‘why am I not feeling this lovely oneness?’ — “And in this game of life, we all search for ourselves. When I say selves, I mean inner selves, the thing that created the life in the first place. Now consciously, most of us are not aware of this. But if you’re searching for happiness, if you’re searching for tranquility…

To enlighten our experience of decision making it really helps to get clear on what we are actually doing when it comes to making decisions, and therefore to see that you have never made a decision in your life. — The video I’m sharing today was prompted after listening to this episode from Christine Heath and Judy Sedgeman in “Psychology Has it Backwards”. It’s about decision making and I shared it with a client who had some (what felt like) weighty decisions to make.

Driving over a poly bag this week was a striking example of how conditioning is collected and maintained. And how awakening is the most effective way to create the space for enlightenment to occur. — Years ago, I was driving my work-issue Astra along a road when a poly bag blew across and went under my car. It didn’t emerge from the back… I felt panic. This was a company car. What if it’s stuck somewhere it shouldn’t be and causes damage? I stopped at…

This week I share more about codependency and the inevitability of it in anyone’s life when they don’t know who they really are, and they don’t know the nature of human psychology. — Last week I shared about Jacquie’s journey with the exploration of who we are and what this human experience is, in the context of codependency. …

“From identifying as ‘codependent tumbleweed’ to the unexpected joy of aligning with unconditional love.“ Today I share Jacquie’s story. See what resonates for you. — Codependency Sounds Big and Scary When I hear the word codependency, there’s a feeling of fear. It sounds big and scary and like something that happens to ‘broken’ people, that it requires years of therapy and which evokes ideas of gaslighting and being a victim to narcissistic behaviour.

This week, a video, about why it feels so hard to speak your truth to someone. We imagine it’s ‘all their fault’ and ‘if only they were different’ when in fact the only reliable route to the peace, freedom, and happiness we’re looking for is to remember who we really are. — In response to this feeling of not being able to speak my truth, I have left a team, kept my head down, tried to adapt and manipulate my words and actions to appease the other person, held my tongue, and probably all sorts of other behaviours I’m not even aware…